Thursday, January 31, 2008

Full Hatred


Right now I'm just a simple man with full hatred. A past problem that I thought it was over, comes strike me again few days ago.
It's a principal things, about my life, the present and the future, my marriage, my family, my daughter.
I feel like person without something to hold on to, something to grip.
I'm gripless.
I feel like it is O.K for me if I torn apart an unfortunate person body who try to mess with me in next few hour.
FUCK!!!!!

the image was taken from www.corbis.com

Monday, January 21, 2008

Soccer in Indonesia

This is kind of weird.
Well, today suddenly my boss ask me and my colleagues to find any information about soccer in Indonesia and the positioning of one foreign soccer-league comparing to others. And you know what?
Despite all the soccer hype in Indonesia there is no valid data or formal data about Indonesian soccer fans. I mean, how can we measure about public excitement on soccer in Indonesia if there is no data about it?
Well I try to find another way though and I found several links that focuses on soccer team or soccer game, mostly they are focuses in English soccer team or game.
Big Reds Forum for Liverpool
Id Arsenal Forum
IndoManUtdUnited Indonesia
Chelsea Indonesian fan website and forum
Toon Army
Those link or forums have a thousands member. And nobody want to now what are the Indonesian Soccer fan characteristics?

PS: I don't like foot ball very much...

up-date on January 25:
1. Indotoonarmy or Newcastle's fan in Indonesia, has a new website: www.indotoonarmy.com, thanks to shearyadi.
2. Check this blog to find interesting-undercover story about soccer in Indonesia

Tuesday, January 08, 2008

About life

What do I know about life?
Nothing, Big Zero, Empty, dong-dong
Despite my 31 years of living, I barely know something about life.
That's why I tend to follow my path-life as it is: take engineering school, choose my announcer course, joined the local news radio, being a journalist in reputable national economic newspaper, after several years I change to communication worker specialized in public relation and media handling....I have to admit that I just don't understand how I should live my life. And when my friend in news paper called me today, discussed about creativity and 'well-established' living, I questioned my self: Have I choose the right path for my life? Do I really regret my current path despite all the comfortability from my previous work? Do I still want to challenge my self?
That's why I tend to remember all the memory, like this morning when I saw a crying little girls around mosque nearby the office. I remember that I used to cried like that, hysterically and loud. It happens in my kindergarten's time, when my mom unusually accompanied me to my school that morning. Since my mom lived in Bandung and I'm in Jakarta with my grandma, I want my mom to accompanied me during my school just like some other kids-mom. But my mom refuse it (I forgot what was the reason... she has to drank some medicine or else... maybe), then I cries like hell. In the end, my mom asked a permission for my absence on that day, thankfully my teacher understand the situation. I also remember about Putri Jail when I saw that crying little girl, gosh, Putri Jail has a loud, I mean very, voice. That's makes me miss her. A lot.
That's why I tend to questioning my self, doubting my self.


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Friday, January 04, 2008

Putri Jail 04

On Action

Aaaayaaahhhh....akyu ingin belajar berenang sambil maen aer ya....'




"mau belanja dulu aaahhhh'